Nowadays climbing has become a chore.

I hate expectations i set for myself. It’s becoming so stressful that before my climb i won’t be able to sleep. I don’t know since when climbing has become something stressful rather than something i enjoy. Maybe the next time i have expectation of myself, i should not climb.

i have forgotten to enjoy the process.

i have forgotten the joy in climbing.

it’s gotten to the point that i will hyperventilate a little before climbing. Why did i climb in the first place then? i climb because i enjoy the satisfaction and the thrill. So what’s happening now?

If my mind is not ready- maybe i shldnt be climbing now.